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8th-Sep-2007 09:06 pm

Last Saturday it had been a year since my Dad died. I would have written this then, but I was in Italy.

Most of you already know everything that happened with that, but I guess a lot of you don't as well. Earlier in the year he was diagnosed with cancer, and he passed away only 5 months after finding out.

Here is the entry I made the day he died. If you don`t know much and want to find out this would be the place I guess.

I'm OK I really am. It's just so strange that the world has gone on for a year without him in it. I can't explain...
8th-Sep-2007 07:26 pm (UTC)
I'm sure most of us who read your journal have never met your father, but I am equally sure he must be very proud to see his son living such a full life. Have a happy weekend :)
9th-Sep-2007 01:34 pm (UTC)
Thanks, you too! :)
8th-Sep-2007 08:03 pm (UTC)
As time goes on, you'll find the sting of the loss gets easier and easier...never to the point that you stop missing them, but there's a solace in knowing they're at peace. This summer, while my bf and I were in London, we marked the four year anniversary of my mother dying by seeing one of her favorite actors in a play. I couldn't think of a better tribute. In some ways, it seems like it was only yesterday that she left us...but yet so much has happened in those four years...but there's never been a moment where I haven't felt my mother's presence in a very real, tangible way.

I don't know about you, but I felt it was a huge privilege to be by my mother's side when she died. The experience is one I treasure...she brought me into this world and I helped ease her out of it. There's something about it that seems so beautiful to me.

Your photography is truly beautiful, Markus...you capture so much more than a simple two dimensional image. You capture the internal as well as the external. You are an artist with a unique eye. Photojournalism or the film industry...either field would benefit immeasurably from your talent.
9th-Sep-2007 01:35 pm (UTC)
I don`t know about privilege, but I'm very glad I made it home in time...

And thanks for the nice words!
8th-Sep-2007 08:57 pm (UTC)

It's amazing, isn't it, how life goes on even after such an important part of it is torn away from you... And, while your life is never the same afterward, it can still be okay, and often even better than "okay." :-)
9th-Sep-2007 01:37 pm (UTC)

Yeah. People said they could never understand how hard it was for us, but it seemed like many had a harder time to understand how we were able to laugh and enjoy life in the middle of it all.
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9th-Sep-2007 01:37 pm (UTC)
Awh thank you! :)
9th-Sep-2007 12:10 am (UTC)
in less than a month it will be a year since my mum died. i hope all is well for you & your family. and people are right, im sure he was/is very proud of you.
9th-Sep-2007 01:38 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry about your mother....

And thanks :)
9th-Sep-2007 01:06 am (UTC)

I am so sorry for your loss, hon...I hope the pain will get less over time.

You are amazing, you know.
9th-Sep-2007 01:39 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Thank you :)
(no subject) - Anonymous
9th-Sep-2007 01:39 pm (UTC)
9th-Sep-2007 12:43 pm (UTC)
If what and how you write is any indication, Markus, you have no worries about being "half the man" your Da was. What a fine tribute with very fine images.

9th-Sep-2007 01:39 pm (UTC)
Let's hope you are right :)
9th-Sep-2007 01:24 pm (UTC)
My heart breaks for you.

I am sure that you know this, but I feel I have to tell you.
You are a wonderful person and I know that your father is looking down on you knowing fully that you are going to live an accomplished life.

He would be proud.

All the best,
Fletcher Fashion
9th-Sep-2007 01:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)
9th-Sep-2007 04:39 pm (UTC)
hi Markus
i knew the anniversary was coming up, which is why i wanted your address, so i could send you something. i'll post it this week, now I know you're back from italy.
your posts over the last few months of your dad's life certainly portrayed him as a special person. and it is very obvious to everyone who reads your journal that you have inherited some of that from him, because you are very perceptive and have the gift of being able to engage with people's emotions.
that's what makes your photography so interesting and worth following :)
hugs to you.
peace and strength
9th-Sep-2007 06:16 pm (UTC)
9th-Sep-2007 07:41 pm (UTC)
hey markus! one year is really not a long time. i want you not to take this as a superficial phrase but i really think that your father would be very proud of you because you mastered things within this year so well, so many changes! good luck again buddy ;)
10th-Sep-2007 10:49 pm (UTC)
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