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1st-Sep-2009 10:32 am

Today it has been 3 years since my father passed away. He got cancer, and he died just 5 months after he was diagnosed. I wrote a lot about it here in my journal at the time. Here is the entry from exactly 3 years ago: sipho.livejournal.com/220834.html

Too be honest, I am not really one to miss people much, even if I love them. But I regret that there are all these things he won't get to see because he is not here anymore. He never met Sam or any of my friends here. He never knew I would end up going to Paris.

Time flies...

edit: Thanks everybody for the nice words. I'm sorry for not writing individual replies in this one...
1st-Sep-2009 09:22 am (UTC)
My thoughts are with you on the passing of your father.

Reading your journal it is clear you have a wonderful family and a special relationship with your father. Looking back over your photos in your journal there is a marked change in your photographs at the time of your father's death. It seems to be the point at which you stopped just taking photos and became a photographer. So maybe in a strange way, the emotion of the event allowed you to open up to capturing emotion in the people you photograph.

The rain will pass and the skies will clear. Keep up the great work in memory of your father.
1st-Sep-2009 12:22 pm (UTC)
*hug* :) Your little brother resembles him a lot!

Anyway is this baby Siff in this pic? :D Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. Where did your blond hair go.

I may sound silly saying this but I reckon he's still with you and knows what's going on in your life. <33
1st-Sep-2009 12:52 pm (UTC)
Time flies at an alarming rate. Live each moment to the extreme because its gone too quickly to waste. And your father is never really gone as long as you keep his memory alive.
1st-Sep-2009 01:23 pm (UTC)
1st-Sep-2009 02:09 pm (UTC)
I love that picture.
I'm still sorry about your dad, time does really fly though
1st-Sep-2009 03:50 pm (UTC)
I remember reading everything when your father was diagnosed and the subsequent months and feeling such sadness for you and your family. Losing a parent just...isn't easy.
1st-Sep-2009 04:17 pm (UTC) - Hey
Oh yes, Markus you really do resemble your father and this photo shows it well. I think some people believe you are the person holding the young boy (Markus)in this photo.

1st-Sep-2009 06:22 pm (UTC)
Hey Markus,
I remember the times very well. It was a few month after we met on live journal. The destiny of You and your father became one of the most important thing I wrote about in the internet. From this time on you became a friend in my heart even though I never met you personally. I'm glad to know you. Hugs :-)
1st-Sep-2009 07:38 pm (UTC)
Markus, the feelings and thoughts you share with friends that endear you and your work all over the world, are a great comfort to me, especially when thinking of the relation to your father and family. Me too, I am very glad you are here and sending you hugs and best wishes for your life in Paris. Thank you so much.
1st-Sep-2009 11:29 pm (UTC)
That picture is adorable! Sending my blessings!
2nd-Sep-2009 03:57 am (UTC)
Even if I don'y know you, your entry from 3 years ago made me cry a river. Be strong Markus, he is with you and I bet he would be proud of you as a photographer, you are amazing.
2nd-Sep-2009 08:15 pm (UTC)
baby you is beautiful!

also be happy and lovely and don't live with regret. live with hope and joy etc. instead.
3rd-Sep-2009 05:47 am (UTC)
i first started following you about this time three years ago..very grateful for the chance to follow your life and work...best always....
3rd-Sep-2009 06:27 pm (UTC)
The old pictures are so moving. You cannot imagen... And omg, your father looks so much like you in the third black and white picture...

3rd-Sep-2009 11:37 pm (UTC)
You look a lot like your dad. I love reading your journal entries. :)
4th-Sep-2009 12:43 am (UTC)
does bollingo mean anything?
6th-Sep-2009 05:01 am (UTC) - Amazing..
Just went thru about 2.5 years of your journal, Markus. You are one amazing young man. And your photography is equally amazing. Reading about your trials and tribulations was quite a moving experience. As I look back I wish I could have done the traveling you've done. My heart goes out to you on this anniversary of you father's passing. My mother passed away in early September 19 years ago. Just as you miss your dad I miss my mom. I wish only the very best for you in the future. I would be pleased to be friends with you. I wrote to you on flickr but have yet to receive a response. Chris
12th-Sep-2009 11:27 am (UTC) - DS
Don't play DS all the time, come back to your journal ("every day"!) please!
13th-Sep-2009 12:42 am (UTC) - Brushwood
Time flies
September's here again
Once a child
Now a man
Love passed away
Love will go on
Why this why me
Kiss, der olafson
16th-Sep-2009 04:16 am (UTC)
Hello Markus. I know that I'm a new poster and everything, but I think this is the journal post that I truly want to add to. I've wanted to do this for every other post of yours, but life has been hectic.

My father passed away 5 years ago this November from cancer. I know exactly how you feel right now. I can tell you this. It gets tough around the time that a loved one passes each year. I drop off the planet each year around November because everything that I seem to be do somehow reminds me of him. But I know that if he were still here today, that he still be the same old person. The same guy that would call me up to dinner, and when I would tell him that I'm coming, he'd tell me that so was Christmas, but it was getting here faster.

There are times where things will not be going good, but the best thing that you can do is just do what you want on this day. If you choose to go out and get drunk, do it (Not that I'm condoning that you do it each year). If you choose to go for a walk for the whole day, put your shoes on and go. If you choose to stay inside, eating ice cream and watching re-runs of The Simpsons, go ahead. But just remember the times that you had with him.

I'm sure that today was tough. But just remember that he passed happily, and that he's at peace now. Remember that he was with family and friends. Remember that is what he would have wanted.

Just remember.

Your friend,